My love

My soul cries out to you every moment of the day

wanting you, wanting every inch of your being

to know you better than I know myself

to understand why you and I have found

us and why it is so powerful in my heart

You've taken over my mind my being with your kindness, your words, your energy comes to me when I least expect it. I think of you and a moment later you are there with words that elate my heart so that it beats faster and faster till I feel it will lift right out of my chest.

At home at night you are so real to me that I expect to find you there waiting for me. To see your beautiful eyes smiling, they knowing exactly what you do to me - even from the distance. I long for your arms to hold me that at times I think you are there and that the warmth of your skin is against mine and that if I turn to see your face it will be there your hands reaching for my cheek. Even now, my chest is rising to meet your touch only finding it's been deceived by wanting yet again.

I feel you places that the mind should not be able to without you physically here with me. Sometimes causing me to blush at the pleasure I have with you with me in that way. When I find my way to bed each night I take you with me, wanting your touch on my skin to be real but instead I look at your face resting beside me on a pillow I've saved for you.

I sleep, but I hear you off in the distance, still awake, wanting what we both want but you seem content with this for now while I struggle a little to accept it as normal for us for now.

come to me when you are ready: I wait for you. I am only broken if you choose not to stay and I am only bruised if you say never. For every hair on my head longs for your touch and the pleasure it will bring your fingers and how wonderful it will be when you are able to place your face where is lays.

Who are you this soul that reaches through time, that knows my mind and my thoughts before they come to me. How have you come to know me this intimately or have I always known you were there somewhere seeing me. Have our souls undressed each other over time that you now see me bare and if so, I am not afraid. I want for you to see me and know me this way.

Bring us together, show me how, guide me gently ~ I trust you with my heart and me. Oh my love, fill me with you.

J

The Wait

written by Janette Marie

Sleeping so soundly
my mind is awake
filled with wonderment and mystery
anticipating you

Words not put on paper
but lost to my dream
filled with springtime and strawberries
as I await you

Your Gift My Friend

written by: Janette Marie


Wasn't wrapped in pretty paper
or tied with a shiny bow
yet I received this speical gift
so unexpectedly

It arrived one very ordinary day
opening up my heart
pouring tears from my eyes
bringing me to my knees

It was on my knees
with tearfilled eyes
and an open heart
that I could see

I saw a light
shining bright
closing my eyes
I found I could hear

What I heard were his words
words making things so clear
telling me to make a change
that I am worth what I hold dear
a life of love - a life with peace

I've learned that I must forgive
that loving is the way
that I must choose to love
and live in His grace

To appreciate each moment
to find joy not chore in all I do
to see the world through new eyes
and a heart open to Love

I thank you my friend
for your loving gift
you gave me back my life
a life with love and a life with peace

Parade

written by: Janette Marie

Blue canvas
high above
clouds like cottonballs
blowing by
balloons fashioned
for a holiday parade
each one choosing
its favorite charade.

Vow

written by: Janette

I stand in front of you my creator
beside the one I love
the one I've chosen to love
the one that brings smiles to my face
joy to my heart
comfort to my soul
and peace to my life

I pledge to you today
to love him as you've created
created to complete my soul
my friend ~ my joy

I'll listen for your wisdom
to give my all and more to him
Love he is deserving of

To my Love I promise
all that I am; all that I will become
all that I can give
and more Love than I possess today

Allow me to Love you
share our days; hold hands
and teach me to love you more

Paper

Paper is my friend
it comes to me without expectations
without criticism
it allows me the space and time
to create to dream
to speak my heart in total freedom
Paper is my love
it gives me unconditional acceptance
everything I think, feel, choose to print
it accepts me as I am freely
Paper is my life
it chronicles all the most intimate parts of me
I place my soul upon it
it allows my words to become my truth my mirror
perfect lines perfect characters
it allows me to be
every moment without judgment
Paper allows me to be perfect
thin beautiful loved cherished
even if not published
paper is part of me

Run

Run

a world full of places

days full of time

worries and troubles always follow

like shadows they chase me down

until I tire from the race

Is there really such a place

where I can rest my heavy heart

to trust it will be caught

in your strong and loving arms

it searches for your comfort

and longs to rest within

an open and  loving heart

Stay

Time has changed the look of love

to silver and grays I've come to know

a sign of time and gain

in glory of days spent in love

I cherish each and every one

a chance to discover new in you

the love I need just like the sun

to nourish my soul and feed my mind

in you I find my every joy

no need to look in other ways

blessed you too can see the beauty

in all my changing human ways

Found

I let myself be

I can feel your five 0'clock shadowed cheek against mine

breath and hands against my neck

as you whisper words unedited

in choreographed movements

we dance coming to know unbridled passion

we've met and we remember

our souls are branded to each other

like feathers on the wind lips

caress parting years of yearning

life begins as moans escape me

as my heart is opened to your love so deep

through time through eternity

you have found me

Illusion

Illusion

Janette Marie

When the moon is out and bright as this

illusions created in the wake of its light

the illusion of love is ever so clever

that I can't tell if your heart is near

or if mine is in its favor

do my smiles fill your heart with love

is your life connected to mine

will our harvest fall together

I long for winter in your arms

Echo

If you were once in my heart, you are still in my heart,

it's just you take up more space in it each day we are apart ~

you choose to walk away leaving me wanting you

an unanswered thought an unfinished sentence

hope calls me to leave you safe in my heart

it's natural pulse encourages its beat to continue

to increase with every word it hears every thought

no end in sight to the never ending cycle that is us

our life and the distance

do you feel it